My Heart and Soul: My Daki Boy

I love you Dakota!

You are my handsome pup and I will love my Daki Boy forever. You gave me the gift of your time the last 2 months sharing our last holiday season.  With long walks and sitting atop the hill overlooking the valley below, you gave me joy and strength.  Thank you for being my strong willed baby boy.  My puppy, you deserve your place in heaven. 

Thank you for always loving me unconditionally. I will miss how when I couldn't find you, you were laying at my feet. I loved how you barked at the beach as a new pup and just wanted attention.  I loved how you would start up the stairs then look back and wait for me. You were always the gentlemen.  You were the meet and greet puppy at the park. You loved the splash of the sprinkler on your face. I will alway love how you greeted me by running under my legs and how I would squeeze you back. I loved that you would dance and leap up into my arms. I will miss how you would sneakily jump up to my bed when you thought I was asleep. I never minded you circling on the bed, laying down and taking up all the space. I loved having you sleep with us… Montana and I love you and will miss your love and warmth. My little red baby boy you chose me when you stayed at my feet the day I chose you from the litter of pups… You stole my heart and you will forever be in my heart and in my mind and in my soul.

Rambling Thought: Under the Shade of A Tree

I just want to lay under the shade of a tree and  talk about life with you.  I want to share a story and hear all of yours.  I want to watch your eyes and your body shift as you remember and reminisce.  I want to know how you felt in those moments or more truthfully what feelings were left to linger from those moments…

I want to know who you were, because I have come to know who you are… And the merge of the two impose that I wish upon a star so I could be a part of your future. 

I want the moments you remember with me to be full of laughter and joy… Immersed in the moment … Vividly revealed because we shared the same space.  I want to help you through your pain and I want to lean on you when I feel the same…

I want to know more about you because it feels like the richest I will ever be… To unlock the treasure trove of the mystery of who you are to me.  I want to sit still at times and be silly in others.  I want to learn from you, about you and with you…

I want to see the world through your eyes so I can understand my own.  I want to grow because of your perspective which I respect the most. 

I want to be the best of me, not to impress you but to let you know who I want to be… For when I fail, I want you to help me see… I want the reflection of me to be in you…

So hard to live this life but I want to know that someone understands and can stand with me… Not just to prop me up but to knock me down and pull me up again. 

In my imperfection… I hope you could love because you loved me when I thought I wasn't enough. 

The more I know you the more I want to know…fascination … I want to challenge you and I want to meet the challenges you pose to me…

I want to look up and see you smiling at me… Because you respect my thoughts… And how I am… I want you to want to be my friend and find joy in my funny ways…

I need someone to appreciate the way I look at the world because it's so lonely to think I'm alone in these thoughts… I need you to appreciate my simplified view on life because that is where there exists the most joy… I want you to know the depth of my thinking is the finding of simplicity… I want you to enjoy that journey to discovering the true meaning of life…

The meaning in my life is found in your smile, in your laughter, in the sparkle of your eye, in the way you react and interact with me… The meaning in my life is in that perfect moment of connection… When the world has nothing more to offer two people but the moment… The meaning of life is that moment of being where all the supposition and imposition are gone and it is two souls at peace and acceptance of one another…   For in those moments you can see God's grace… You can see God's face…

TLC on The Main Event Tour 2015 - Compilation Video Done

I had the awe inspiring pleasure to watch TLC live in Anaheim on May 2, 2015 and San Diego on May 11, 2015.  I was blown away by the memories of some of the greatest hits in R&B, Hip Hop and Pop.  TLC embraces what it means to be a woman and what it means to be empowered by that privilege.  Tionne "TBoz" Watkins and Rozonda "Chilli" Thomas and the powerful memory of Lisa "Left Eye" Lopes makes this trio forever inspiring.

This concert brings home some of my roots that I have forgotten.  It's not just a throwback concert... It's a soul revival for who I was and I have always wanted to be as an adult.  TLC music brings you home and carries you forward.  Much love to TLC,  the TLC family of fans, dancers and crew that bring these concerts to life.

May 11, 2015 NKOTB and TLC again in San Diego

Fabulous show!

Happy Mother's Day

Hanging with the parental.  Dinner and a movie.  Ate at Venga Venga in Otay Ranch Mall, then Hot Pursuit with Sofia Vergara and Reese Witherspoon.  A fun evening with the crazy that made my life... Love my mom and dad even though they tend to be a bit cray.

Kids Visit!

Parental Hangout Day

Took my parents to dim sum and then some 85 Degree Cafe bakery and coffee.

Disneyland - April 19, 2015

Quick run to hang with the kids!

Happy Birthday Moe!

Off to Disneyland again! YAY... First stop Iced Sea Salt Coffee at 85 degree Bakery!  After Disneyland, met up with cousins and kids at Lucille's BBQ in Murrieta!  YUM!

Surprise! Happy Birthday Emily!

Surprise party for Emily!  Yay.  Had a blast waiting for the birthday girl, occupying our time by visiting the Photo Booth.  Got a chance to hang out with Nicole and Lauren, Auntie Fe's grandkids.  Then hung out with all the youngins at the "Rock Park"... Adventure games begin!